Tuesday, May 6, 2014

Homesick

I hurt myself Saturday at my shop.  Picking up cinderblocks.  My back is aching from my ribs to my neck.  But more so I think my soul hurts a little.   I'm no longer sure of what I am doing here.  I mean that in both the little and the big way.

I am generally at unrest...you know how people say they are at rest, at ease.  Well these last few weeks I have been at unrest.  I know that is grammatically incorrect, but you get what I mean.  I was so confident and happy about how things were going at the end of last year.  I was making money, I was writing, I was doing...but now it has slowed to a crawl and I am not just pissed about it, I'm discouraged.   Same - you know what - different day.

What am I doing wrong?  Not just technically with my shop, my business - but on the inside.  What is wrong with my attitude, my beliefs about myself, my faith? Or, is this just all a part of what is supposed to be?  Maybe I am not doing anything "wrong".  At any rate I need to make sure I am in alignment with whatever is supposed to be.

I feel homesick for somewhere I don't think I have ever been.






2 comments:

  1. I hope you feel better soon! It is hard to be in a good place when you are in pain. I know I am in a funk due to stress that I have to work on getting rid of but mine is work related, so I am not sure how I will handle this yet.

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  2. Thanks Winnie. I am feeling better already! I know that all will be well. I hope you figure out how to deal with your stress - it's a pain when things aren't going well at work. Yuck. But Life is meant to be good, we gotta get rid of the stress!

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