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Friday, January 7, 2011

It's That Time of Year Again!

It's that time again.  The beginning of January. Resolution time! Or not.

Many people do not make resolutions because of the self-disappointment they feel when they "fail". I have lived that cycle of disappointment many times over. I would give myself a beat-down the instant I fell off whatever wagon I was riding. I beat myself up so badly that when my wagon made its way around again, I couldn't bring myself to hop on again. For a couple of years I met January and other goal oriented times with a rousing "Why Bother!" 

December 31st @ 11:59: Resolve to lose 10 pounds. Going to get in shape and be healthy!  Whoo hoo!
January 1st @ 7:00am: Alarm rang - got up and rode bike for 20 minutes. Drank a glass of water.
January 1st @ 12:00pm: Ate a salad with grilled chicken. No dressing. Drank a glass of water.
January 1st @ 7:35pm: Ate curly fries and two pieces of homemade cheesecake. Drank milkshake.
January 1st @ 7:36pm: Remember that I suck and it was a stupid resolution anyway. 
January 1st @ 7:37pm:  Eat another piece of cheesecake out of depression and self-loathing.
January 2nd @ 7:00am: Turned off alarm watched the Today Show.

My problem wasn't from eating the curly fries and cheesecake.  My problem was letting that Mean Girl voice capture and convince me to give up.

I recently found an old collage I created years ago.  Many of my goals were listed along with pictures and quotes.  I had forgotten all about it. I was absolutely shocked at how much I had accomplished. We get much more done than we think and we are much further along than we think.

My plan this year is to write down all the things that I want to accomplish.  Go for broke.  It will be good because behind all my plans and goals are my true resolutions.
1) Keep going.  2) Lighten up.

7 comments:

  1. Love it! Especially the lighten up bit, I could use that too!

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  2. We are so hard on ourselves aren't we! I think many of us moms could lighten up a bit!

    Thanks for your comment Getrealmommy.

    Cj

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  3. C.J.! Those are fabulous resolutions. Keep Going and Lighten Up. I may tatoo them somewhere.

    How are you?? Are you on twitter? I recently broke down and joined and have NO idea what I'm doing. But would love to chat with you. (@momadabsurdum)

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  4. My favorite part was all 3 slices of the cheesecake. Hmmmm, I can go for a slice right now.

    I already broke my resolution too.

    Happy New year!
    **Yolie

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  5. Love this. Especially love that you're writing again! I did a similar thing when I found a list I'd written about 10 years ago. I hadn't done everything, but I'd done some of it, so it felt pretty good. At least I know I'm still trying to accomplish the same stuff.

    I've missed you!

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  6. Yolie,

    Thanks for the New Year's Wishes! As far as your resolutions are concerned - just keep going, and if it's important, eventually it will stick.

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  7. Partly!

    Happy New Year! I got sick and sidetracked with the writing, but I am back, trying to re-build the momentum I've lost.

    Congrats on your list. Isn't it great when we have tangible evidence that we don't suck as much as we think! That is why we have to kill that false super woman identity. Let's not be scared of goals and resolutions! We don't have to be perfect, we just have to lighten up and keep moving.

    I miss you too - will be swinging by soon!

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