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I like my family being on a schedule and love being able to know exactly what comes next at any given time during the day. I hate wasting time surfing the net and watching TV for hours on end. I mean it just makes such a difference and you discover hidden time!
The problem is this - my house is not neat and orderly. I mostly feel tense and behind the eight-ball, especially when I walk into my living room that usually has crap strewn about. Most days I run around like the proverbial chicken with their head cut off looking for things that should be easy to find. I freak out when I see pee all over the bathroom seats and when I have to dust crumbs off the placemats so my kids can eat at a clean table. I have three young children and feel as though I am more than flying by the seat of my pants. My husband, who is probably reading this right along with you is laughing I am sure. Particular at my love of everything being in its place.
The kids stick to a pretty good schedule, but that is what happens when you have school aged- children. My son dresses himself and sometimes its too late for me to make him change when I notice that he has been wearing the same shirt for the last three days. I can only pray that he has changed his underwear. He does however shower and wash everyday - so that is good. Unfortunately the same cannot be said of my middle man. He has to pass a sniff test everyday.
How is it that the vision of my life is so so very far from reality? Am I unreasonable in my desires, or do I just need the right magic combination of action and inspiration? I see books lined up on the shelves of libraries and bookstores claiming to have the fix for household dis-organization and general discombobulation. I have bought and borrowed a million of these books and spent countless hours surfing the net for help and advice. Is it a sham! Sometimes I wonder if these books are written by OCD-ers where cleaning a way of alleviating their own tension and stress. There is a rumor going around (started by my therapist) that I have a touch of OCD - unfortunately my version is limited to my acting more like Jack Nicholson in "As Good As It Gets", then being obsessive about organization and cleanliness. Perhaps these books are written by people who like to write books and just picked organization as a topic. Where are the writer moms like me - who really want some organization that sticks and just kinda figured it out. Is there a secret?! I guess I am more obsessed with wanting my home to look and operate a certain way, than actually having it that way. If it was a true desire, wouldn't I be able to accomplish it? Where is the disconnect between all my lists, schedules and budgets that I put so much time into creating and actually springing into action?!?
Should I lower my expectations and be satisfied with what is at this time? Sigh...truth be told, if I made enough money I would hire Alice from the Brady Bunch. I would have a nanny and someone to do laundry and clean the kitchen. I can still be the best mom and wife in the world without ever having to wash another pair of not so tidy whiteies or clean another toilet in my life. However, it is what it is while it is, so until I win the lotto or get my NanoWrimo novel published to score big bucks - I will keep searching for the secret. Not for the "how to". After all my research I know HOW. I am searching for the secret of the "DO". How do I get off my a$% and do?
About the photo: No - this is not my living room. but I find it appealing. This room was featured on a blogpost @ StyleSwoon which is a great site that I discovered. For all you style lovers check it out.